Cancer and Desire is a gallery of Pornographic Images paused, distorted, blurred, and photographed on a damaged television within 48 to 72 hours after each of my Lymphoma related Chemo treatments, 2003-2004. During this time I possessed little, if any, strength to move about and thus the living room became the studio. When faced with my own mortality and under the perpetual drugged induced influence of R-CHOP (Rituximab, Cytoxan, Adriamycin, Oncovin, and Prednisolone)
I developed a deep desire to affirm my being in a visceral, creative, and sexualized way. Even now, it’s complex for me to grasp. These images speak more to my fear of loss, the prospects of my own mortality, and the collision of life with death than they do the seeking of pleasure, gratification, or intimacy. Only a handful of people have seen these images and when I return to them now, many years later, they disturb me.
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